James changed the day Alistair died. He now has the personality of two wee boys; PAIN MUM LOSES TWIN SON TO COT DEATH Lorraine's bid to raise awareness of syndrome that claims young lives Lorr synd.
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A MUM who lost one of her twin babies to cot death has spoken of her heartache.
Alistair and James Thompson were 21 months when dad Gary, 37, found Alistair's body in his cot.
As what would have been the tragic tot's third birthday nears, mum Lorraine, 28, has told how she doesn't think she'll ever come to terms with the sudden death of her little boy last February.
Lorraine, from Haddington, East Lothian, said: "I think about it every day. It's always there.
"Everything was fine until he just died in his sleep. It's James's birthday on April 20 and I've had this sudden realisation that he'll be a whole year older than Alistair.
"James changed the day Alistair died - he's now got the personality of two wee boys. They weren't identical but they were very similar.
"James is a constant reminder of him. I just keep thinking, 'I wonder if Alistair would be the same'. That's the hardest part. I don't think I'll ever dont I ll to terms with it. I don't feel even started dealing with it.
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baby dies from sudden infant syndrome (SIDS) every nine in Scotland. Around 90 per of cases happen in the first months of a baby's life.
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I thought there would be a reason for it and I could use that to keep James safe. But there was no reason. I don't have any way of keeping James safe now. James is a completely different child now. I just hope he remembers Alistair."
Lorraine will run a 5k race in October to raise money for the Scottish Cot Death Trust and has raised more than PS1400 already.
She's hoping to raise awareness of SIDS and get people talking about something which affects so many families.
She added: "I was so ignorant when it came to cot death, I didn't know anything about it.
"People don't talk about it because no one wants to talk about dead babies. But that needs to change."
It's so hard. I don't think I'll ever come to terms with it
POIGNANT Lorraine with tragic son Alistair
SO CUTE Alistair, left, and twin brother James put their hands in air for picture. Alistair would have been three on Sunday