Overcoming fear of returning to school.
At the age of 44 I decided to go back to school. I had been in retail on and off for 25 years and just could not do it anymore. My soul was crying out for fulfillment. I was scared and unrealistically afraid to fail. I wanted to go back to school a long time ago and my fear of failure stopped me from going at all. Finally I couldn't do retail anymore and went in and registered for the Health Care Assistant (H.C.A.) program at Sprott Shaw Community College in Surrey.
I live in a world where just going to school was not an option, so I had to face working fulltime and going to school full-time. I was worried about how I would juggle the two and how I would have time to study or even do homework. For seven months, day-by-day, I went to school at 6:30 a.m. to do homework and study, and then went to work. I got a maximum of 4 to 4 1/2 hours of sleep each night, and on exam days even less because I got up at 3:30 a.m. to study as I had no other time to do so. I got most of my homework done and aced almost every exam.
I finally graduated, and with honours no less. I couldn't believe it. I am grateful to some of the women at Sprott Shaw for their constant encouragement even when I came to tears from shear exhaustion and frustration. They pushed me to keep going and here I am now working where I did my first practicum and very happy indeed.
It was tough and it took everything in me to do it, but I did it. Thank you Sprott Shaw and specifically Lois (instructor), Shelley (finance), Aimee (career planning) and Angela (clinical instructor).
Health Care Assistant Program, Surrey Campus