No more David Moyes - why I'm half-excited and half-scared.
"KENWRIGHT: Fans Can Help Me Choose Next Blues Boss" said the headline in Friday's ECHO.
It rang a bell. Let me start before the beginning. I feel uneasy recalling that I emailed Bill Kenwright (in a personal capacity and possibly using a pseudonym) suggesting he take on David Moyes (well, I was younger then and football can make you do impulsive things).
Perhaps, as a union member, I ought to apologise to Walter Smith - after all, this was several months before he would lose his job. Perhaps I ought to, but I can't find it within me to do so.
While I was happy Kenwright eventually chose "my" man (despite that email), and Moyes proved he had staying power, 11 years on I find myself half-excited (though admittedly also half-scared) that it's now all change.
Moyes has provided me with some great days and nights at Goodison Park and beyond (I'll never forget that trip to Nuremburg), but I've also had some nightmares (I thought we might get an apology, if not travel and ticket refunds, after that drubbing by Benfica in Lisbon and toothless display against Fiorentina in Florence).
And I was reaching for the smelling salts after that out-of-character 4-4 at Old Trafford when the manager said: "I don't think I have ever gone into any game and sat. I have only ever gone into any game trying to win it."
Liverpool, Manchester United (normally), Arsenal, Chelsea, Fiorentina and Sporting Lisbon away? In the end, it all comes down to fans' priorities. Many Liverpool fans naturally pour scorn on Everton's lack of trophies under Moyes - and Steven Gerrard joined in with his "They never actually win anything" pre-derby dig. But I know Reds who, looking at what the clubs have spent, believe there should be an inquiry at Anfield into why Liverpool haven't always finished several places above their poverty-stricken neighbours.
Moyes has achieved miracles in the league but, for some of us, life now seems too short to be content with regular, and laudable, lofty finishes but no silverware or wins in big away games.
So yes, I'm half-scared we might now sink several places in the league - which, short of a Chelsea/Man City-type takeover, we're never likely to win again in my lifetime. But I'm half-excited that, with the right decisions, we could see a nearly team graduate into an entertaining, fearless, occasional Cup (and, yes, Anfield derby) winning team.
Not much to ask, is it!?