Close-up: LSD: "I'm losing my mind": a young woman's experience with the hallucinogenic drug LSD.
But there are no trails and there is no whipping wind. These sensory bloopers may be related to the LSD Amanda took when she was 16.
LSD, also known as acid, is a hallucinogen or drug that can cause hallucinations. In other words, it can make someone see, hear, and feel things that aren't really there. It is sold on the street in many forms, including capsules, liquid, treated sugar cubes, and gel wafers called windowpanes.
Often, it's added to decorated blotter paper and divided into small squares which are then chewed and swallowed.
We talked to Amanda, now 21 and a resident of the Phoenix Academy of Long Island drug treatment center in East Hampton, New York.
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
It all started when Amanda was 13 years old. "I always had a problem being accepted," she said. So, when she saw some friends smoking a joint, she asked to try it, thinking that drugs were a way to bond.
She also thought that her drug use--which soon included ecstasy and cocaine--would numb her pain. "I never felt like I was good enough," she says.
One day when Amanda was 16 and home alone, she decided to take LSD, or drop acid. After about an hour, she started laughing hysterically.
That was the first of many trips, as the drug's highs are called. Amanda's LSD use ramped up from occasional weekend use, taking one or two doses, to daily use at school, taking six or seven doses.
Experts say that Amanda's daily use of LSD is rare. Because the drug isn't addictive like heroin or cocaine, people generally stop taking it after a few experiences. Perhaps it's bad trips that turn them off.
The term bad trip refers to unpleasant--even terrifying--feelings and sensory experiences while high on LSD. Amanda told us about one particularly awful hour she spent tripping or "bugging out," as she put it.
It was the day before Easter and many family members were milling around her house. She had dropped acid with friends downstairs and was feeling panicked about getting caught. She sat behind her drum set rocking back and forth, holding a glow-in-the-dark star. That star "seemed like my only friend in the world," she says.
As it turns out, she may have been right. "The friends I got high with," she says now, "weren't my real friends." As soon as she left drugs behind, they dropped her.
Amanda and her so-called friends believed they'd reached "a higher plane," or some form of enlightenment, on acid. In reality, they were stagnant and unproductive. "I went nowhere," says Amanda. "I did nothing but worry about getting acid."
NOT MENTALLY THE SAME
Today, Amanda isn't worried about getting acid but about the damage it may have done to her brain. The trails and other perception problems haven't gone away, and it's been three years since her last hit of LSD.
In a way, though, Amanda got lucky. She used to call tripping "losing my mind." For some of her friends, the made-up term may have turned out to be real. "I've had friends who've never come back from it," she says. "They're not mentally the same. They're in psychiatric units."
According to Dr. Geraldine Lin of the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA), psychotic breaks are associated with LSD use, but it's unclear whether or not the drug directly causes mental illness. In fact, scientists are still struggling with many unanswered questions about LSD and the brain.
Amanda now aspires to become a drug counselor to help others out of a life ruled by drugs. She wants to share what she says she has learned: "You can experience life in all its beauty without drugs."
Not Worth It
Take a look at this trend. According to a NIDA-funded study, the percentage of teens using LSD dropped significantly from 2001 to 2002. These are the lowest rates for high school seniors in 27 years. Maybe teens are getting the message that it's just not worth it.
ANNUAL USE OF LSD 2001 2002 12th-graders 6.6% 3.5% 10th-graders 4.1% 2.6% 8th-graders 2.2% 1.5%
With some drug of abuse, it can be a little tough to tell what's what. LSD, psilocybin, and mescaline (see FAQs, right) cause hallucinations and are therefore classified as hallucinogens. The club drug MDMA (ecstacy) has both hallucinogenic and stimulant properties. That's a double whammy of potential dangers.
Some other drugs that are not technically hallucinogens have some similar effects. These include:
* PCP or angel dust. This drug changes perceptions of sight and sound and can make the user feel detached from the environment and the self. It's called a "dissociative" drug because of the sense of dissociation it creates. PCP, usually sold as a powder or liquid, is addictive and in high doses can kill.
* Ketamine or "vitamin K." This odorless, tasteless powder is a dissociative drug that can cause amnesia, depression, and learning problems.
Like LSD and ecstacy, both PCP and ketamine are associated with the young adult rave scene.
FAQS ON LSD
What are hallucinogens?
Hallucinogens are drugs that dramatically alter perceptions. Some hallucinogens are produced solely by nature. These include psilocybin, found in certain mushrooms ("magic mushrooms" or "shrooms") and mescaline, the chemical found in the peyote cactus. LSD is semi-synthetic, or artificial.
Where does LSD come from?
LSD (lysergic acid diethylamide) was invented by a chemist in 1938. Working in a lab in Switzerland, Albert Hofmann was trying to create medicine out of a fungus. He ended up with LSD. Five years after he created it, Hofmann accidentally ingested the drug and took the first bad trip: "A demon had invaded me," he said. "[It] had taken possession of my body, mind, and soul."
What are the short-term effects of LSD?
LSD and other hallucinogens powerfully distort the functioning of the five senses, as well an one's sense of time and space. Some users even report a blending of the senses--seeing sounds and hearing colors--known as "synesthesia," An LSD trip may include terrifying experiences and inspire dangerous behavior on a user's part.
What are the long-term effects of LSD?
Two long-term effects reported by former users are psychosis and hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD). Psychosis is a severe mental illness, in which a person loses contact with reality. HPPD (often but less accurately called "flashbacks") is a disorder that includes ongoing perception problems, like the nonexistent trails Amanda sees.
How does LSD work?
LSD binds to and activates a specific receptor for serotonin, a brain chemical involved in emotions and the senses. It especially affects two brain regions: the cerebral cortex--involved in mood, cognition, and perception--and the locus cereleus, which receives sensory signals.
If LSD isn't addictive, why is it dangerous?
"The main reason LSD is dangerous is because it's unpredictable in its effects," says NIDA's Dr. Jerry Frankenheim. "The most dangerous thing that can happen in that someone has a complete break with reality and thinks they can fly or stop traffic."
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|Date:||Oct 27, 2003|
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