POLICE OFFICER'S WIFE SPEAKS TO HER FEARS; AN OPEN LETTER TO THE NAMELESS, FACELESS KILLER THAT LURKS IN A FAMILY'S NIGHTMARES.Byline: Kristine L. Doyle Special to the Daily News On May 15, flags will be lowered to half staff all over the United States United States, officially United States of America, republic (2005 est. pop. 295,734,000), 3,539,227 sq mi (9,166,598 sq km), North America. The United States is the world's third largest country in population and the fourth largest country in area. in honor of National Peace Officers' Memorial Day. It will be a day for family members, friends and even strangers to pay tribute to the peace officers who have lost their lives in the line of duty In the Line of Duty may refer to:
As the wife of a police officer, I will be no exception. My mind will be filled with many thoughts. I will be thinking of the 160 new names that will be added to the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial The National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial, in Washington, D.C. at Judiciary Square, honors fallen law enforcement officers. The memorial was established by an Act of Congress in 1984, and dedicated on October 15, 1991. for 1997. I will be thinking of the family members and friends of those fallen heroes. I will be thinking of the cruel and senseless way most of them were cheated out of their dreams for the future. I will think of my own husband and how lucky I am to have him in my life. Then I will think of you. I will think of how I do not know you. How despite the fact we have never met, I fear you more than just about anything. How although I cannot see you I am haunted with the knowledge, the fear that you are always out there - a nameless, faceless person lurking See lurk. (messaging, jargon) lurking - The activity of one of the "silent majority" in a electronic forum such as Usenet; posting occasionally or not at all but reading the group's postings regularly. in the shadows of my deepest, darkest fears. How even though you do not speak for the majority, I fear your voice most of all. Yours is the voice of doom, because when you speak, your words are deadly poison. How in the silence of the night I am gripped with the terror, the knowledge that you are lurking out there somewhere, poised and ready to speak your mind. You see, it is because of you I stay awake most nights. Your rage, your hatred, the desperation you carry with you traps me alone in a prison of fear. I am paralyzed par·a·lyze tr.v. par·a·lyzed, par·a·lyz·ing, par·a·lyz·es 1. To affect with paralysis; cause to be paralytic. 2. To make unable to move or act: paralyzed by fear. with the knowledge that you could someday stand in the way of my husband's and my vow of forever. I wish you could know what a wonderful person my husband is. I wish you could see what a loving and caring husband and father he is. I wish I could describe to you how his eyes shone with love on our wedding day and how he beamed with pride and joy as he held our babies for the first time. I wish I could explain to you how much he means to me, to our children. I wish you could know his reasons for becoming a police officer. He chose to become a police officer not to ruin your life, but to protect it. You see, every time he puts his uniform on he places his life on the line for everyone in the community, even you. The hardest thing for me to do is to think of you as human, someone with a heart and a soul. It would be far easier for me to view you as a monster - evil and rotten to the core. However, I realize if I am to ask you to see past my husband's gun, badge, his figure of authority, I must be willing to do the same for you. I believe you were born into this life with a soul, just like my husband. I believe your soul was set forth into this world full of promise and somewhere that promise ended for you. My heart breaks knowing you probably never had the chance at life that every little soul brought into this world deserves. I mourn mourn v. mourned, mourn·ing, mourns v.intr. 1. To feel or express grief or sorrow. See Synonyms at grieve. 2. the death of your innocence. I grieve grieve v. grieved, griev·ing, grieves v.tr. 1. To cause to be sorrowful; distress: It grieves me to see you in such pain. 2. for the loss of your faith. I can only imagine how painful it must have been to see your hopes and dreams soar up Verb 1. soar up - rise rapidly; "the dollar soared against the yen" soar, soar upwards, surge, zoom go up, rise, move up, lift, arise, come up, uprise - move upward; "The fog lifted"; "The smoke arose from the forest fire"; "The mist uprose from the to the sky, only to watch them shatter shat·ter v. shat·tered, shat·ter·ing, shat·ters v.tr. 1. To cause to break or burst suddenly into pieces, as with a violent blow. 2. a. and crash back to Earth, crushing all the love in your heart until it finally disappeared and was replaced by bitter hatred. You are in my prayers every night. I pray I beg; I request; I entreat you; - used in asking a question, making a request, introducing a petition, etc.; as, Pray, allow me to go s>. See also: Pray when you come face to face with my husband, the father of my children, you will see him as a person and not as an enemy. I pray that you will find the strength, the courage to remember how it felt to have your life stolen away from you. I pray you will think of our two very small children, two little lives full of hopes, dreams and endless promise. I pray you won't do to them what was once done to you. Most of all, I pray that a lifetime of May 15s will pass by and I will never have to know you. That the only place you will ever exist will be in the silent shadows of my deepest, darkest fears. That your voice, your message will never be heard. That your bitter hatred will never see the light of day. Wednesday, two days before National Peace Officers' Memorial Day, the 10th annual Candlelight Vigil A candelight vigil is an outdoor assembly of people carrying candles, held after sunset. Such events are typically held either to protest at the suffering of some marginalized group of people, or in memory of lives lost to some disease, disaster, massacre or other tragedy. will be held at the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial in Washington, D.C. One hundred and sixty new names of officers killed in the line of duty will be formally dedicated at the closing of this year's ceremony. The state of California contributed 14 of the 160 newly engraved en·grave tr.v. en·graved, en·grav·ing, en·graves 1. To carve, cut, or etch into a material: engraved the champion's name on the trophy. 2. names, marking the fourth straight year California was the deadliest state in the nation for law enforcement officers. CAPTION(S): Photo PHOTO (Color) Kristine L. Doyle of Canyon Country is married to a Los Angeles Police Department "LAPD" and "L.A.P.D." redirect here. For other uses, see LAPD (disambiguation).  This article or section is written like an . officer. They have two young children.
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