Britney's TRUE confessions; SHE REVEALS ALL IN AN AMAZING INTERVIEW I let myself go after I got married My first marriage was a cry for help I can see my flaws but I just don't care I'll be with Kevin 'til the day I die Justin split was most painful thing.

Byline: By John Dingwall

BRITNEY Spears has confessed she can't resist junk food and says she let herself go after her marriage to Kevin FederlineThe pregnant Hit Me One More Time singer wed the dancer in September and has decided to speak out about her struggle to keep herself in shape. She says she will always have a weight problem.

And Britney, who is due to appear in her own reality TV show in America later this month, called Britney And Kevin: Chaotic, admits she could become overweight unless she can get to grips with her cravings.

She says: 'I think I'll always have a weight problem, so I'll have to do the things that keep me in shape.

'I love junk food, and occasionally will still splurge, but normally I just eat sensibly. I don't overdo anything ...

except my music.

'I don't look in the mirror and say, 'Oh, I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. Look at me'. I see my imperfections, I do see my flaws, I just don't care.'

Britney would be the first to admit she has become something of a freak show for photographers of late.

She has been spotted out shopping with no make-upon her acne marked face, wearing ill-fitting sunglasses and scruffy clothes.

She admits: 'I walk out of my house in my pyjamas, with no make-up on, and I just don't care because that's how I feel more comfortable.

'If you want me to wear a fancy dress to go to Starbucks, then you are completely wrong. After I got married I was one of those people who let themselves go a little bit.

'I was lounging around, eating and laying out. I just didn't have a care in the world.

'I have some really dorky glasses that I wear.They're like these granny glasses. And I wear this big cap, too. And every time I wear it, nobody says a thing.Wait a minute, maybe I shouldn't have just said that.'

Her trailer trash image is in direct contrast to the squeaky clean look of innocence with which she launched her career and the airbrushed perfection which comes with her glossy album sleeves and promo videos.

And as she loses her dignity in front of the paparazzi, the fears that her career could spiral out of control, or be put on hold altogether, have increased

ANY attempts Britney has made to stave off speculation about her in the US gossip magazines has generally backfired.

She wrote a rambling letter on her official website attacking American columnists which would have gone over the heads of most of her teenage fans.

Though she denies she is losing it, the 23 year-old admits her quickie first wedding to childhood pal Jason Alexander in a Las Vegas wedding chapel was a desperate cry for help to her parents.

The marriage, at the start of 2004, was quickly anulled after the singer described the ceremony as 'a joke that went too far'.

Britney explains: 'I think that was a desperate cry to my family. I had felt lost for so long and my mom was getting my sister ready for showbusiness and I'm on the road just running around in Germany with my head cut off and not knowing what the hell's going on.

'I didn't need a counsellor. I needed my mom and I needed my dad.

'Your daughter getting married is one of the biggest things in the world and I think I really shocked the s*** our of them.'

Britney admits she has been on an emotional rollercoaster ride while balancing her public and private life since the start of her career.

But nothing was more painful than the split from Justin Timberlake who she believed was her Mr Right.

'The most painful thing I have ever experienced was that break-up,' she admits. 'We were together so long and I had this vision.You think you're going to spend the rest of your life together.'

On the subject of her husband Kevin, she claims her current marriage hasn't all been plain sailing, but adds: 'He's the sexiest man alive. No-one knows the half of what he can do. He's brilliant. It's the best thing, just having somebody that always has your back no matter what. No matter what goes wrong, somebody is there for you.

'We hit a little bit of reality, hardcore, after the first three weeksBut we handled it fine and now things are starting to go really smooth.

'We're going to be together forever. We know that, and that's the only thing that matters.

'Marriage is not something we take lightly. I intend to stay married until the day I die, just like the vows say. This current attitude that marriages are disposable boggles my mind.'

She also denies rumours that the birth of her daughter, due in October, will spell the end of her career.

Britney adds: 'I would think I could do both - be a mother and have a career. But if I had to choose, I would have a family. People like Faith Hill and Madonna, they give me hope.The fact that they can have their families with them and they can balance the whole thing. I think that's inspiring. I'm maturing as a woman. I feel much older than I am. I've had to deal with things and I've got responsibilities that most people twice my age don't have to deal with.

'I feel like I'm more into my own skin now as a woman and as someone else's wife. My mom will tell you though, I'm still the sweet girl I've always been.Trust me, I've made plenty of mistakes. But I don't really regret them, because it's made me the person that I am right now.'

Meanwhile, the countdown to Kevin and Britney's reality s how on May 17 continues, but will the home video series be all it's cracked up to be?

Publicists claim the fans will see 'exclusive, never-before-seen private home videos they shot themselves during their courtship, engagement and wedding,' during the six- episode series.

And Britney gushes: 'I am so excited about the series. From the day that Kevin and I met, there have been constant rumours and inaccurate speculation about our lives together.

'I am now going to be expressing my personal life through art. This series will show us falling in love and all the adventures that went on overseas during the European leg of my Onyx Hotel tour. It's going to bean exciting ride.'

#BRITNEY'S first husband Jason Alexander has revealed that despite being close friends from childhood, Britney has now completely cut him out of her life. 'She won't even speak to me now,' he said. 'It's like we never got married

CAPTION(S):

BEFORE KEVIN; GLAM SLAM: Unmarried Britney did look stunning when she hit the town; AFTER KEVIN; SLOB FEST: Whoops, she did it again - yet another picture of Brit letting go; FLASH THE TRASH: Britney's bizarre style is getting more and more unpredictable