'YOU'VE RUINED US ALL.. WE CAN NEVER FORGIVE' THE KILLERS OF BEN KINSELLA: Family tell of their anguish.

Byline: BETH NEIL 

ALMOST a year has passed since Ben Kinsella was knifed to death - but time is no healer for his loved ones.

In this angry, moving and passionate open letter to the three thugs who killed her brother for no reason, sister Brooke reveals how his murder has shattered his family.

She recalls how loving Ben was and how he inspired everyone he met. And she says she can never forgive his mindless killers for their moment of murdering madness...

Dear Killers

' YOU will never, ever know or come close to understanding what you've taken away from us.

Ben was the most kindhearted, beautiful boy you could ever have the pleasure of meeting. I was proud to be his sister. I could talk all day about how amazing he was. He was clever and funny and talented. Ben could have done absolutely anything he wanted to and there honestly wasn't a bad bone in his body.

But in your one moment of madness, all that has been snatched away.

Now he'll never know about all the A*s he got in his GCSEs or the college place he had won.

We're just three sisters now. We don't have a boy to pick on and tease or send out for Lucozade when we're hungover.

I don't think our family will ever know another day's happiness. We'll never be completely happy again because our lives have been destroyed.

If I ever get married, my brother won't be there to have a dance with. He won't be there on the top table. It makes me not want to get married and it makes me not want to have children because my kids will never know their Uncle Ben.

Everything is ruined. We've had to watch this shatter our parents. They're the people you run to when you've got problems, but they can't fix this. We've lost a brother, but for my mum to lose her son, I really don't know how she's still here and still the best mum in the world.

With Ben being the boy in our family we always worried about him.

Only a few weeks before this happened, my sister Jade said she had dreamed about Ben dying.

My mum would panic about him going out. But I don't think any of us ever thought something like this would happen. Why would we? Ben wasn't a troublemaker. Which makes the way you tried to smear his name in court to save your skin all the more painful. You tried to say he'd thrown a punch. Ben would never have done that, something which was backed up by all the witnesses.

One of the hardest things we've had to do since Ben died was packing up all his things when my parents moved house.

We sat on his bed and looked around, taking everything in.

We've all kept things which mean something to us, favourite T-shirts he wore and his artwork.

There's bits and bobs everywhere at my mum's, so he's still there around us.

I've got a drawing he did for me when he was three, which says: "I love you Brooke by Ben". That has pride of place next to my bed. I kept all the drawings that Ben and Georgia did for me over the years, thank God.

But I don't expect you to care. You've never shown any remorse for what you did and for that reason I don't want to waste any more energy on you.

I can't help feeling angry. Hearing you lie and listening to your lawyers trying to get you off something so huge and so devastating was horrific.

I can't just switch anger off. I'm out and about and angry, I come home and I'm angry. I don't want to see any friends or do anything. I'd like to ask you why, I'd like to ask you just how COULD you? There are so many things I want to ask you, but I don't think you could even begin to answer.

I'm probably the most level-headed and calm person out of my family but I don't think even I could be put in a room with you without losing it.

Besides, even if you were sorry, you could never say it enough. And it would never bring back our beautiful Ben. '

Brooke

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BELOVED BEN With Georgia, Jade and Brooke MEMORIES OF BEN.. With younger sis Georgia. And the siblings, right, with Brooke in centre